Sunday, July 22, 2007 @8:53 PM
hello blog, just you and me. (:
it's been a monotone, more or less. been studying with wanling at galilee for the past week for very long hours. turning into a good mugger student like everyone else.
other than studying, i'm choosing to disregard everything else.
i've gone back to writing in my handwritten diary, which is much easier to manage and reflect in. when i've finished the last thing i have to do for the day, i'll be sitting on the bed and scribbling away without holding anything back. maybe sometimes the most ancient methods work better.
the university thing's getting under my skin as much as before.
the other day, my dad and i went to fetch my bro from alumni practice. on the way there i told him about how i was tired of not knowing what to do. or not having a choice. and how the uncertain future and his expectations made me lose sleep and all that.
nus ranks better than ca unis in quite a few fields. so if i work towards any of these fields, then....
hahahaha. possible stragedy huh.
weiling wants to bring me home after a's! i thought she was joking. and when i asked her she said "do i look like i'm joking." so i guess she's not. i love the girls, and i'm going to miss my class a lot. must try to have reunion every year. arghahasdlkf.
weiling asked if i still cared. about. ya, and i said no, and she said he found someone.
i hope he doesn't wound or kill the new girl or anything.
i really dont care. at least i know i shouldn't and i dont want to.
chloe was supposed to come to my house today. i think the pig slept in as usual and nobody could wake her. so she didn't.
today was sbbc's anniversary. the church choir gave a donmoen presentation. "God is good all the time", with andy as the soloist. the stupid boy. he's growing into such an angel. haha. his brother aaron made me smile today. and hannah, michelle and nicholas squashed me in the morning, competing for lap space. haha. i adore the church kids. <3
i miss tjoe. yeah. i haven't been a good friend. but i'm not sure what to do, and too tired to do anything.
i feel old. haha. drained and exhausted. i think even ahmahs dont get so emotionally stressed. the jc kids all look the same- lifeless and sad. 2 more months, hopefully rapture comes sometime before a's. ? blasphemy! sorry God.
guess i'll stop here.
keep faith, till next time.
