I'm having gp tuition on national day. Awesome way to celebrate the morning after band dinner. I loved english a lot as a little kid, so much so that I used to string complex expressions together, effectively freaking the teachers out because of how the poor language was mangled in every essay. I loved english because almost no studying was involved; and it gave me an excuse to rant using vivid imagination. And then I entered jc, and encountered gp, and started stoning in class and christening the tutor as the foremost bane of her students' existence. But thanks to Amos and his passion with manipulation, haha, my love for the language hasn't diminished; it's grown. I dont wish it was as easy as before anymore. GP rewards maturity, and there's nothing wrong with forcing a growth spurt out of our maturity over the short span of two years to prepare us for adult life. It is to our benefit.
Tone: Sanguine ie optimistic (possibly deluded)
It's a sad reality, that human nature is charactized by the need to feel and experience something to appreciate it. I can tell you that "strawberrywatermelon with one suan mei" juice is damn refreshing, but if you have never tried the concoction before you'll probably think that it's a disgusting drink only good for appeasing the cravings of a pregnant woman. Good will be nothing without the existence of evil, and ugliness wouldn't be a social stigma if nobody was pretty. Likewise, company will never be appreciated unless you know loneliness. But the good thing is: the more you've been forsaken, the greater a person's company means to you. Going beyond the theoretical understanding of something's importance means first learning to live without it. Doesn't that argument singlehandedly defeat the purpose of friendship? Where one failure contributes to the success of the next, which will ultimately end up in the same kind of failure because of yet another success? It's a chain reaction- endless like the radioactive decay of uranium, and potent with wreckability. ahhahaha. new word. At the end of the day, hope lies in the fact that these worries are shared by other human hearts. And a quiet promise of regeneration after failure, provides adequate assurance that there is more meaning to life than theoretical understanding.
Numbness personifies as cold behaviour, which I dont bother to hold back to those closest to me. It isn't sitting too well with them. wtf, I'm such a mess.
s'pore. where peace is a sampan bobbing in the sea ahhahahahaha.
noise
be still my soul
God knows your way; and He will guide,
for His name's sake plunge in the rivers
of His grace, rest in the arms
of His embrace.
