; balance lost

Saturday, November 25, 2006 @10:45 AM

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
thinking of me too

Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside
my contacts
Would you even care?
whether i have enough contacts solution? HMM?

cos i'm dreaming of you tonight
not tomorrow, i wont be holding you tight
cos there's nowhere in this world i'll ever be.
than here in my room, dreaming about you and me.

aww!

lol.
had quite a bit of fun mime-ing out this song with becky after band.
band hmm.
band.

band overdose.
band headache overdose.

now i'm starting to understand why my conductor says he hates to have to his waste time on admin matters.
i'm starting to see how it makes people so tired.
too tired to be dedicated to the music.
and how it makes the band so practical, so technical.
and so unfeeling sometimes.
not that i'm any less motivated. so nicky doesn't have to worry.

hmm. sometimes i'm so smart, i amaze myself. HA kidding la.
1. the only thing harder than admitting to a guy that you like him is admitting to him that you dont.
2. things that belong together will come together, and stay together. think inelastic collision.

but sometimes i wish i was so much wiser. that i could make important decisions without questioning myself soon after.
that i could make sense of so many things around me.
that i knew what to say to make you feel less bitter.
enough band.

ok how long has it been since i last did this?

I am: quite bored
My name is : Pamela Cuppucino Samalele.
Some people are just so: stupid.
I'm optimistic about: putting on enough weight to donate blood next year. 45 KG! YEAHH.
An event like this would traumatize me: everyone around me turning against me.
I yearn to: love. without having to feel so tired.
I'm jealous of: people who have more flesh than me. assholes.
I trust: you.
My intuition is usually: right.
One time, I spontaneously: ate some banana leaf. it was quite good.
I haven't had this feeling in a long time: needed.
I am proud of: my friends.
I would never be seen wearing: torn contact lenses.
The scariest dream I ever had was: also the happiest dream i had. cos someone told me the opposite of what you dream about will come true. AAAHHHHHH.
I am annoyed because: people annoy me.
I feel most beautiful when: i feel loved.
I could care less about: what someone thinks of me.
My favorite kind of movie is: dont make me embarrass myself. or all of you who watched ice age, madagascar, finding nemo, happy feet, flushed away, ice age2 etcetc with me.
oops.
I often get distracted by: music. people who play good music.
I am eager to: sit at the semi d during band camp in the middle of the night. i'll drag nicole/emmie/rachel along. just look up at the stars.
I'm glad that: i am where i am now. (:
I feel guilty about: making people unhappy.
This really hurts: ): don't want to talk about it.
I've finally made peace with the fact that: i'm not perfect. the world isn't perfect. nothing will be. and i shouldn't try too hard to perfect myself. yay pam.
I'm most talkative around: wahlao. why like that one.
I was so embarrassed when: HAHA. SO MANY. :$
One feeling I hate is: being lonely.
One feeling I love is: love.

try it.