Tuesday, July 19, 2005 @9:35 PM
its another beginning. another battle ground.
i wonder why i said that too.
there's an internal war inside of me. and i don't want it to stop
cos somehow it relieves the pain of swallowing so many secrets.
of hiding the bad things, and just sharing the good.
and having to endure a huge fault in me.
everytime a special psychic somebody notices i suffer internally, i further conceal the scars my pain create.
which only makes me sadder, thus willing me to appear happier. and so the scars deepen further, and my smile widens in proportion again.
you digust me. i loathe you. i cant stand being within a 500 nautical mile radius of your soul.
too bad. i'm in you.
i'm you.
purplet's gonna murder me if she finds out i'm posting in yet another blog.
i cant possibly say this in that blog can i.
some classmate wants to run away from home. and i'm happy for her, cos at least it's a feasible thing to do.
how i wish there was a way i could run away from myself.
