Wednesday, July 27, 2005 @10:08 PM
hello.
i wanna be a nicer girl. ((:
kept spacing out during lesson today la.
but somehow the notes i took today were more organised than usual
so hmm. i should continue to daydream. ehh.
i'm getting used to feeling empty now. i guess i wouldn't thrive so well all they cared about wasn't for me to study.
it's pretty stupid, cos if i study three quarters of the day my rate of absorption will be very low.
so since i hope to be self sufficient as soon as possible, i try to sleep in the afternoons to strike an optimal balance in my life so i can effectively get good grades and get a good job soon after i graduate frm u!
yeahh. spastic.
i feel sad for some people who are self-absorbed.
but i don't think i'm capable enough to make a difference in their lives.
graduating from band really did do something to me. ):
i wish i could find my spur back sometime soon.. it's horrible to just stand around and watch cracks secretly forming in the foundations we've worked so hard to build.
i wish i could tell someone what i see.
